Week One: Halfway Done

I'm sitting here in my room, watching Friday Night Lights and painting my nails, taking a break from applying to jobs. Kiara said she was waiting on a new post, so I happily obliged, and I suppose it is time for a new post. I'm halfway through my first week in Alabama and so far it's going pretty well! I have had the opportunity to venture into the city of Prattville with my uncle and his wife. We went to Wal-Mart and STEAK AND SHAKE, which was awesome. Uncle Bobby is planning on taking me into Montgomery sometime this week, and I'm really excited for that. When I asked him and Kathy what kind of nightlife there is around here, they both just laughed... I forget that they have three kids, another one on the way. There social life, going out days are over. So I'm really really really hoping that I find a job sooner rather than later. One, I want to be able to start saving up money for my own car. And two, I really want to start meeting some people my age. I can't not have people in my life, can't not talk to people who are on my level. I'm really missing my friends right now and I think it's getting especially bad because I know that they are all about to be together again at school this weekend. They'll get back to their routines and be around each other all of the time, and it sucks knowing I'm not going back there with them. I miss them all so much. And I've been Skyping with Madison on a regular basis, but missing her is already nearly unbearable. I know it's going to be even harder once she's back at school and has a million things to do and I have a job and things to do as well. I just have to keep it in my head that we'll make this work and I'm going to see them all soon. Hopefully very soon. Yesterday I babysat my three-year-old cousin, Jason. He was a handful and he kept me on my toes. But I also got a little sad watching him. It's crazy to think about how kids get such gratification and enjoyment from the simplest things like jumping from one couch to the other. They laugh and play and have such complex minds, but simple views. I wish life stayed like that forever. I wish that we could still get so much from the smallest things. But as soon as you grow up, you starting wanting more. There is pressure to go off and be great, pressure to go to school and to excel in it, pressure to graduate and find your dream job, get a house, be engaged by 23, married by 25. And then after that there is family and mortgages and soccer practices and birthday parties and I just want to slowwww down. I don't want any of that just yet. I want to meet people and experience things and find who I am and stick with that and craft it. I'm hoping that Montgomery has that to offer me. Or at least a piece of the puzzle that I am trying to put together in figuring out what I want in life. The dream job would be nice... A car would be great. If I can get a car, I'll go from there. Who knows if my destiny is here? All I know is that destiny has brought me here to this point and I am for right now okay with that- even though distance... really sucks. I know that it will get easier once I have established myself here. I've got to find that bold and courageous girl that everyone from Western NC knows. That girl who can talk to anyone, who is fearless and loves life and gets up every day smiling and laughing. I want to establish myself here and find people and let them find out who I am and allow me to change them. Crossing my fingers for that.