Heading into the City

My uncle is taking me into Montgomery today, and I'm so stoked! The city of Prattville where they actually live, is about 10 or 15 minutes outside of Montgomery. It's awesome being close to a big city that has a lot of history and culture. I can't wait to go out there and check everything out! I'm a little worried because I haven't really gotten a feel for what the style is like here, and I have a pretty set style that defines who I am... I hope Alabama is cool with it, cause I'm not really ready to change it. My style is hard to define, because I always change things up, but it is very unique to who I am and was always something I prided myself on at school. Hopefully the people of Montgomery don't get too freaked out by my style (I'm from a pretty liberal school). Last night I went to a Chinese buffet with my Uncle and we got to bond and talk a little bit. He's not even forty yet, so he's pretty cool and knows the deal. I'm excited to go into the city with him and get to talk to him more. Also, today I am having some realizations. I realize that things ARE about to change. They already have. Things are about to get crazy with my friends going back to school on Monday, and I have got to get to the point where I am okay with that. Missing out on things, not being there for the little inside jokes and good laughs... My time has come to leave, and although I miss them so freaking much, it's time to move on and start building my life here. That goes for Madison, too. I am already feeling some sort of weird pull from her and I don't know how to explain it. I'm worried that she's going back through another phase of missing her ex-girlfriend. But this is it. One time and I'm done, because I can't put all my effort into making this long-distance thing work if she's not doing the same. I'm not trying anymore. Whatever happens happens, and that's the way it's going to be. I can't keep myself tied to that place so much that I don't allow myself to really get grounded here. It's time to grow up and move on with my life. And my God, I wish I could explain how terrifying that is. But I know what I want in life, I know what I deserve. And I'm going to go get that. Hopefully today brings forth a lot of good time for me to clear my head and really start getting rooted here. It's a high of 70 and I couldn't be more excited about that. I'm also going to try to remember to take more pictures so that I can add them to my blog. Starting with today.