Small Victories

I'm sitting on the couch, watching my three-year-old cousin watch Ice Age and eating a breakfast burrito. Kathy just left for work and Uncle Bobby is still asleep from working all night so it's just me and the kid. I'm starting to miss the girls (they go to their mom's every other week), but I can't deny that I do enjoy the peace and quiet that comes with not having Maddie around for a few days. This morning I had a job interview via telephone with Target. It's not an ideal long-term career choice, but hell it's a job. And a job means money and money means a car and eventually an apartment. And my uncle always says it's easier to find a job when you've got a job. So I am thankful for it. The phone interview went well, and I used the previous experience from my past job as Staff Coordinator to answer pretty much ever question. It made me realize just how much I learned about work and coordinating and responsibility while working with the marching band. And of course, it made me miss it. I have a second interview in person on Monday and I am ready to impress them and hopefully get the job so I can move forward with saving money. Did I mention how terrible I am at saving my money? If I have it, I want to spend it. I've never been good at saving, which is probably why I don't have much of anything right now. But my eyes are on the prize. And right now, the prize is a car and my own mode of transportation. I've got to keep my head on right and make that happen. Crossing my fingers for this job! All of my friends are making their way to Cullowhee this weekend. Many of them are already there. I'm getting phone calls and texts about Purple Thunder, our indoor drumline, which many of my friends and Madison participate in. Today is their first rehearsal and I just want to be there. I remember PT being my first assignment when I began my job as Staff Co, and now my friends Daniel and Jacob are getting to experience it as the new ones. Getting their texts and seeing pictures is really great, but at the same time... I'm sad. I know that once everyone gets back to school and I get a job and our schedules become busy, we will not be able to text each other and talk as much. Madison's ex is coming back to their room today, which means we'll barely even have Skype opportunities anymore. It sucks when you realize that peoples' lives DO go on without you. No matter how much of an influence I had on the band and the people in it, it's going to continue to run and flourish without me there. There will be people who come in and continue to change it, and eventually not a single person in the band will even know who I am. That is such a giant pill to swallow, and bitter as hell. I love these people and I am not ready to let them out of my life. I just hope they aren't ready to let me out of theirs, either. That being said, I am excited for change and new things to come. I'm ready to get a job and start meeting people. I'm stoked about this Target possibility, because when I was daydreaming about coming to Alabama, I pictured myself working there as my first job. I'm not sure why or what that means, but that's pretty cool. I'm ready to have exciting stories to tell so I'm not just babbling about my adventures in babysitting... I'm ready for that life I've been waiting for.