Patiently Waiting

Well I have hit a bit of a snag in all of the progression that was happening over the last couple of weeks. Unfortunately, the people of Target are not being very professional. I thought I was going to be starting my orientation this week, but they have not called me. I was supposed to hear something on Wednesday around three, still haven't heard anything. I've called, left messages, everything short of stomping my happy ass in there and demanding a schedule. I'm not really sure what's going on with them, but I'm wondering if this is a sign that I am supposed to be somewhere else. I really don't know what I am supposed to be doing, but I am still applying to other places and keeping my options open. If I don't have anything set in stone with Target by the beginning of the week, I will be going to the Autuaga campus of the Department of Youth Services to apply for a position as a Youth Aide.

I'm just really getting to that point where I am so ready to get to the next step. I don't want to wish time away or anything, but I keep thinking about a car and having my own place and being able to visit my friends- all of which require money. I want to be able to go wherever I want to, to go sit in a park with a book and a sandwich, to be able to pick up a cup of coffee and do some window shopping, to be able to explore a different church every Sunday. I am desperate for that freedom, and in order to get it- I need a car. And in order to get a car, I need money. I want to be able to go out to bars or a gym and start meeting people. I want that option.

But I have had the opportunity to spend some time with my Gram, which I am always thankful for. Yesterday she took me to the library so that I could get my hands on some books to keep me occupied. I picked up Looking for Alaska and Paper Towns by John Green, as well as a few others. I'm about halfway through Looking for Alaska, and it is phenomenal. We also went out for some lunch at Wendy's and she showed me a really cool store that is almost like an indoor yardsale. It was awesome, and gave lots of ideas for things I want when I have apartment. I also went to this really sketch place called, 'Beauty Supply' to look for some hair products. But the girl with the bright red weave was very helpful, and I tested the products she suggested me out today. They worked great haha. I also had dinner with Gram last night and we watched a movie on TBS. I'm so thankful for that time I get to spend with her, although she isn't a 22 year-old bombshell anymore, she is still the most amazing woman I know.

I'm trying to keep positive and remember that things will pan out the way they are supposed to. I'm just ready for that to happen!!!